I still haven't got my prom pics:( but when I got them
I'll make sure everybody see them:p
as I'm staying in istanbul this summer I decided to
have some fun, so I attended first music festival of the season here, it was so
much fun to watch gogol bordello alive! and I must say seeing eugene's butt
almost completely was pretty interesting, lol. hihihi I was in the front line
so I was soo close to the stage and it was wonderful! I also watched shantel,
baba zula and gevende (I'll mention about these guys later) here's the piccies!
:)) aaannd I'll be watching judas priest alive 2 weeks
later!! hihihi I love summer!
oh and I LOVE these guys and their music! they're so
adorable and sweet so I wanted to share :
GEVENDE LIVE at PARADISO, Amsterdam
(feat Tobias Klein)
ps: you can watch the entire concert or you can check other songs without watching entire concert above, so I liked that fabchannel site
they're soo authentic! and they seemed to have great
fun while playing! oh btw the concert I added isn't the one I watched on
sunday, I've just found it and decided to add here:)
I've been reading reading and reading, freely and happily! and it's
great to read things that is not containing math and phsycs problems in
it! lol
lol! actually I think I love math and pysics somewhere in me, but I wish that love would help me to solve those probmels too:p
and
one last thing about the exam, I could almost feel the cloud of
positive energy around me! lol. the cloud probably contianed my mommy's
and her friend's prayers (from different cities and different
countries!) and some reiki with the enlightment of Green Tara and
probably cerberus sent me some help too:)) because I was soo relaxed
although this was the exam I've been preparing for 2 years.. so,
hihihihi, I'm stiil full of positive energy! :D
oh and here's something I want to share;
this is my best friend (and me) while picking berries:)))
it's from friday, I went to school to take my carnet and my yearbook and after taking them I saw those ripe, juicy, purple mullberries in the school garden:D
many many kisses (until I write another blog in a few hours!) lol
oh and I was almost forgetting; here's my prom dress and shoes!
hihi, sorry for the messy room:))
and picture quality also sucks but I'll get a new camera this week:)
I took that ****ing university entrance exam today! it wasn't as good as it should be and probably I won't be able to study medicine this year but I have one -or more- year to study harder and well, I'm free again! lol
I still can't believe how smooth everything is in my life at the moment! I was so over-stressed, and emotionally worn out until few days ago..
the memories of my ex were almost haunting me, I could sense his smell, his touch, his warmth.. then I decided to get over it and then I asked for advice from you.. you already knew that, and 2 days ago I did what Hawthorne suggested.
Actually I wasn't expecting myself to do it so soon but I almost "had to" to do it. Next morning -after writing the blog- I saw a dream, it was a very complicated one but at the end of it I met with M. (the ex) and and told him that I was there to talk to him. I was in a very decisive and strong attitude in my dream so when I woke up I felt an urge to write that letter:) before burning it I asked for guidance and help to solve this problem smoothly, to remove him from life and ta-daa, it has been solved smoothly! and after burning it I felt another urge to remove everything related to him from my computer and my life.. so I'm completely M-free at the moment:))
ok I had to admit, I wasn't sure whether I should delete it or not so I asked to Cerberus and he told me "always follow your intuition!!" hehe, thanks bro! :))
of course there are so many person to thank
here's my Oscar speech:
I want to thank ... lol. but seriously I'm feeling the true support here:)
so I got only one month left to study my uni. entrence exam, and I have to study way too much:(( in the meanwhile my ex keeps annoying me. I really got bored to see him with other girls.. (damn digital cameras!) There's a site called facebook, a site where you can make your own profile, and we both have profiles there so I constantly see his photos with other girls and read his posts about how he fell in love with another girl. I knew that he is just a jerk with lots of money but I just couldn't guess that he could annoy me this much!
anyway, I've been trying to play the cool girl so I can't just remove him from "my friends" at facebook (and there are some other complicated reasons too) so I decided not to open the computer for a while.. actually by doing that, I'm hoping to fully concentrete on my studies.
* * oh btw I want to work on reducing my anger and jelaousy for him, you
know these negative feelings never bring good things to you, but I'm
not sure how to do it :s I just want to release myself and let the
whole matter go but it is not as easy as I say.. I'm just a 18-year-old
girl full of emotions and hormones and wanting to believe somebody wholeheartedly -somebody very mean and full of lies- doesn't help me much.. so I would appreciate any advise on this matter:)
